"Are you ticklish?"

boredboredboredboredbored

I'm at work, and I'm bored out of my mind. I'm burned out from this week. All the stress from the bad news, plus I've been extra busy lately trying to pick up some of the programming slack. And right now, I'm just spent. I'm trying to think of a way to cruise through the last hour and 9 minutes of the day. so here I am blogging about nothing. Nope, nothing at all. kinda like seinfeld. "full of sound and fury, signifying nothing" wonder how many different ways I can come up with to indicate nothing..

nothing
nada
zip
zero
zilch
nein
negatory
non
empty
void
transparent
blank
...

I'm stumped, that's about all I can come up with. well that wasted about 3 minutes.

Out of body experiences

There are nights when im turning off the lights in the apartment, and starting my routine preparations for bed when im struck by a thought. All of a sudden its like im finally slowing down enough to the point that reality catches up to me. All of a sudden the realization hits that im living on my own, something that hasn't been the case for 31+ years of my life. And the realization also strikes me that my father is still gone and will never come back. And those realizations act like a chill down my spine and I suddenly feel like a child who's lost and alone. After a few seconds the feeling goes away. Some nights it leaves a lingering sadness behind. I just had one tonight, and the sadness is hanging on. I think because its coming up on the 2nd anniversary of dad passing that they're lingering. Only tonights different because a new thought has struck me. I wonder if mom has moments like these and if they're any worse than mine. Sorry for the depressing post, just needed to get it off my chest.

For any single women...

or friends of single women...or people who know single women...

Girl Guide to Geeks


Sure alot of it's stereotypical, but there may be some gems of truth in there too

Journal Entry - January 10th, 2008 (now with 100% more pictures!)

Wednesday - I got the desk finished, and got the chair put together. Boy I thought the desk was tricky, but the chair was a royal pain in the ass. But the desk is in place, the computer is setup on it, and no longer setup on a rubbermaid container, and the office is looking like an office, and less like a room full of boxes. I can now do "office" type stuff in there like paying bills, filing paperwork, updating my financial software.

Thursday - This has been a really long week. There's more work developments looming in the near future. I'm just trying to make it to the weekend so I can unwind a little. Took some pictures of the new office additions,also a new picture of the amaryllis project. My time-lapse movie project was a failure, literally. Had a power outage which turned off my pc the webcam was connected to, and subsequently wiped out the frames that the software had already captured up until then. It was a nice idea, but I think I'll have more fun just enjoying the plant as it is.

Hang Ten

C'monnn...just gotta ride this crashing wave a little bit further so I can make it shore....

Journal Entry - January 8th, 2008

The desk and accompanying office chair have been completed. The chair was a real bitch, so I'll get pictures in the morning (if I remember). Other than that, it was a pretty quiet day. This weather is pretty crazy, even for Ohio. 10 degrees last week, 60 degrees today and yesterday, supposed to be in the 30s and snowing again next week. It was a very nice break in winter though. I think if we had more of these warm streaks like this, maybe we'd all be better off emotionally without so much of the "winter blahs" Once every couple of weeks having a day that you can roll the windows down on the way to and from work sounds like a good idea to me.

Journal entry - January 7th, 2008

Monday Monday, can't trust that day,
Monday Monday, sometimes it just turns out that way
Oh Monday morning, you gave me no warning of what was to be
Oh Monday Monday, how yould cou leave and not take me.

-The Mamas And The Papas


Today was a stressful monday. The bad news that I mentioned in a previous journal entry was delivered today. It wasn't my decision overall, but I was put in the position of deciding who got the bad news. Thankfully I wasn't alone when I gave them the news. That would've been very difficult for me to do. Even though I didn't have much choice in the matter, it still bothers me that I had to negatively impact someone's life in that way. Hopefully the person in question will end up ok in the long run.

Not much else happened today. After the drama of the morning, I laid low for the most part.

I started working on the desk last night, got the bulk of the structure put together, still have to put the drawers together. Oh! Imagine my joy when I barely make it past step two out of 20-odd steps when I see I'm missing a "hidden cam." I wasn't happy. thankfully I was able to find a spot that it wouldn't have much structural effect. Hopefully in the next couple of days when I'm not so wiped out I can get the desk put together and finally make my office into an actual office rather than a room with boxes and a computer setup on a rubbermaid container ;-)

Journal Entry - January 6th, 2008

I've already screwed up my resolution this year, and it's only the 6th of january. Oh well :) Anyways, I've decided to stop numbering the journal entries and just put the date on them. So, onto to a weekend recap journal entry..

Friday...what happened friday...Not a whole heck of a lot.

Saturday...Slept in until noon. Guess I was tired. Got together with Todd and Kathy in the evening. We went to the new BW3's in Aurora for dinner. Good food, nice place. Then we did some shopping in the area. I went to Target and got myself a Rubik's Revolution (see prior journal entries). Went to Circuit City and picked up season 2 of Stargate Atlantis. I've been hooked on watching the first season. The circuit city in aurora has really lacking inventory. It's the nearest electronics store to the apartment. Maybe I'll luck out and they'll open a new best buy in aurora/twinsburg/solon ;-) Went to Dick's trying to find an OSU shirt to wear to work on Monday and to wear monday night while I watch the big game, they didn't have anything that looked big enough. Todd got some surround sound speakers. Then I came home and watched more Stargate Atlantis. Started to notice my ear was ringing, not sure if it was from checking out the speakers with Todd or if it's a remnant of the cold/flu bug.

Sunday...got up around nine, called mom and got setup with her. I went home and got her xmas lights and extension cords wrapped up and put away, helped her bring the rest of thexmas decorations down from upstairs, got them stashed away in the basement, and helped her pick up sticks in the front yard and loaded them onto the trailer while she drove the tractor. After that I went to Wal-Mart and picked up a computer desk and computer chair finally, along with Shoot Em Up on dvd and Stargate Atlantis season 3. Had a heck of a time getting the chair and desk into my car, but I was able to get things jammed in, and had the trunk lid held down by the cargo netting, since it wouldn't close. Got back to the apartment and got the desk and chair unloaded, then went back out to giant eagle to pick up some things and prescriptions. Got back to the apartment, got the car unloaded again, and now I'm sitting down watching football. Got some pizza hut ordered online, since I'm exhausted.

so there ya go, now I'm back up to date with my journaling :-P